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I actually wrote this one a while ago and have been sitting on it because I didn’t like myself very much after reading it and didn’t want to project that energy out into the universe. But it is what it is. I wrote it because it needed to come out, and I think I am finally ready to share it.
I was watching a commercial the other day where a woman is living parallel lives on a split screen. For most of the commercial the same exact thing is happening until things take a turn. Suddenly on the left side of the screen she’s actually on stage performing in a ballet while on the right side she’s only sitting in the audience watching. The moral of the commercial (yes, it’s one of those) is that every moment counts. The decision you make in the blink of an eye can be the difference between greatness and indifference in the future.
I keep trying to think back, to remember when the exact moment was that I made whatever decision it was that got me to where I am now. When did I cross that line? And will there ever be another opportunity for me to get back to the side of the screen that rocks? I’ve heard people say that you should have no regrets in life, and that’s something I struggle with everyday. Obviously there is no going back, and while I know I should focus on living in the present, I can’t help but think about the past because it’s what brought me to where I am now; the right side of the screen, which, for the record, is actually the wrong side. It’s kind of funny because I find that like the line to the Fleetwood Mac song “Landslide” says, “Time makes you bolder.” The older I get the better I know myself, the more secure I am and the bolder I become. But where was all this boldness when I needed it? Where was it hiding when I was making that decision which ultimately led me to the right side of the screen? Well, if nothing else, at least time has given me the wisdom to laugh about it so I don’t cry.
That’s how this entry ended originally. I had given up hope until just last weekend when I met an incredible woman named Julia Baldwin who recently wrote “No one's destiny is written! At any moment you can leave the life path that you are now on and embark on one that is more compassionate, wise, fulfilling and free!!!!” as her status on Facebook. Now, say what you will. Everyone’s beliefs are different. I for one happen to be a big believer in the fact that things happen for a reason, which is why I believe this was the universe sending me a message. Had I not met her last weekend we wouldn’t have become friends and I never would have read that status which inspired me beyond belief. So thank you Adeeb for introducing us, and thank you Julia for restoring my hope. I’m working my way back to the left side of the screen, people!
